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Here is an update about the Drama in our so called life.
Eric has been traveling for about 50% of the month of February and leaves again tomorrow to go to England for 5 days. The England trip is purely work related and has nothing to do with the job search. The rest of his traveling however does. Eric had 2 fly back interviews. One to the School which shall not be named and one to NEH the National Endowment for Humanities. He was really excited about the NEH job. He really wanted it. The interview for the school that shall not be named told Eric we should have heard by Last Friday. Ok, even taking into account the holiday weekend they are really taking their time in getting back to us. What they tend to do is call choice number one and then if that person accepts they call choice number 2 &3 and tell them "We are sorry, you were all very worthy candidates but we have chosen to go another way" Some schools and I mean very few go ahead and let the 3 candidates know where they stand up front. This is a much kinder way than the waiting game. Since we were told we should know last Friday and have not heard anything we are assuming Eric is not the first choice but they don't want to tell him that until choice number one is fully committed. I am calling them the school that shall not be named simply in case they do call with positive news and or their search committee does online searches of the candidates family and I don't want to get caught openly bad mouthing them.
We got Devastating news from NEH today. Sorry Kaity we won't be neighbors.
I am not really angry with either of these places.
I am mostly Angry at myself for daring to hope. We both really thought this was it. This was the year. We were going to have a plan, a place to go, a place for our children to feel settled. I am especially Angry that I have basically been a single mother for 2 months now while my poor husband prepared for these interviews. Now we are back to the unknown. Frankly I am sick and tired of the unknown. We simply don't know what else to do. Eric feels like he has exhausted all of his opportunities  I simply am not qualified to do much. If you know Oprah or Ellen or someone like that and they want the photos of their life scrapbooked than maybe I could earn some decent money. I know we will figure something out. The fact that our apartments are ending the moderate income housing program we belong to is making this so much worse. Even if we wanted to stay our rent would go up $800 per month.

Ok so here is my rant. I am sorry to be such a bummer.
Please, I have said this before, Please do not tell me this is
1. for our own good.
2. something better will come along,
3. this is the plan for us,
4. things will work out.
5. Good, we didn't want you to move.
I know these are all said in love. After 5 years I am (insert descriptive word of your choice) sick and tired of of hearing them. Instead just say "Life Sucks and then you Die" I have said that since high school and it applied during puberty and it apply s now. That does not mean I don't appreciate all that I do have.

Birthday

On Friday I turned 36. I am not sure how that happened. It is not that I feel old or embarrassed about my age, what surprises me is I feel like I turned 30 last year. The song Time Warp keeps coming to mind about age.
To Celebrate I organized what we have been referring to as my Birthday Extravaganza. Scrapbook Expo was in Anaheim at the Convention Center so we spent Friday and Saturday there. Oh it was so much fun. I completed 25 traditional Scrapbook pages. Did a little shopping and had lots of giggles. Sunday we went to church and I was able to see a childhood friend. (Please don't judge the Sunday activities. We had to eat and this was very out of character for us) Then we hung out at the hotel for a while. We walked around DownTown Disney and then enjoyed the huge fireplace at the Grand Californian. For dinner we went to the Story Teller Cafe at the Grand Californian Hotel. Dinner was sooooo good. It is now my goal to replicate the eggplant that was served with my fish. Monday we went to the Glen Ivy Hot Springs Spa in Corona. I still feel a little loopy and overelaxed from all of this. Monday after the spa we went to Don Jose for dinner with my parents before driving home. The spa and Don Jose in the same day. It doesn't get much better than that. It really was a perfect weekend. I am so glad we were able to pull it off. I am so thankful to my friends who covered my financial shortcomings so we were able to do all it. I will hopefully have pictures to post soon. I did not take one picture myself which is very much out of character.  Thank you ladies for joining me.

To top off all of this I just found out I won the Jay Kordich Power Grind Pro Jucier from the Green Smoothie Challenge hosted by Maria Rippo Health and Body Transformation 
I have been planning a post about Maria and how amazing she is but there is so much to say that it will take me a bit of time. She is wonderful. Check out her site. I am so excited to get my new juicer.

Hopefully this relaxed wonderful place I am in right now will get me through the next two weeks. Eric has 2 flyback interviews and a trip to England. I will be a single mom for half of the next 3 weeks. I think I will survive. I have decided to assume he is getting a job this year because the alternative is to hard to consider. I am being my own worst enemy and being hopeful.

It has been a wonderful week and I hope so much that in the next couple of weeks we will have more to celebrate. I have been dreaming about how to announce Eric got a job for so long I just hope I will actually get to announce something this year.

I am so thankful to all who wished me well, took care of my kids, went with me, and for my husband who has been extremely stressed out and overworked and still made it possible for me to have my Birthday Extravaganza. If we do end up moving I know that this trip will mean so much to me in the future.